Tuesday again

Tuesday’s seem to come around an awful lot!  More than any other day, I think.  I weighed in today at 1$9.4, so I’m into the ‘new’ numbers again.  That’s nice.  But I’m not really making any progress.  It’s hectic around the house lately.  We are packing up slow but steady, and I think we are going to have a garage sale on Saturday, plus two little kids running around is just chaotic in general.  Add to it, trying to fit in a proper ‘good-bye’ to all your friends (everyone wants to get together before you move), and worrying about losing weight just gets lost in the shuffle.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not being bad.  I’ve managed not to gain, it’s just the extra effort of dieting that I can’t manage to swing lately.  If I’m a little stressed from the day, I like a little bit of ice cream (mmmmm, ice cream) to put me in a calmer state!  I’m going to have to be honest, for the next two weeks I just expect to maintain - that way if I do lose, it’s just icing on the cake I probably ate a little of!

Minor Setback

Well, today I weighed-in at 1%0.0 which means I’m up .4 of a pound and back to the old numbers…  that’s not too terrible, I suppose, considering that I spent about 4 and 1/2 days sitting in a van (driving to NC and then looking at houses) eating garbage.  Next week will be better.  I’m back home (this is home for less than three more weeks ), so I’ll eat better now and get back to exercising at least a little in between packing up the house. 

Another Week, Another Weigh-in

I did my weigh-in this morning, bracing for the worst.  Pete and I have done a bit of celebratory eating since closing on the house, and I have been cheating basically since vacation.  But yet, the scale was good to me.  I’m not sure how that is, and I checked twice then put my son on the scale to make sure it worked!  I didn’t lose a dramatic amount, mind you, it’s just a surprise to see numbers that I haven’t seen for years.  I weighed in at 1$9.6 (different symbol, different number).  I’m without words, just very excited to get closer to my goal. 

Vacation

I never did post my weight yesterday (the kids and I decided to go to a water park, so I didn’t get the time). I’m down another pound - 1%1.0. Slow, but steady, I guess. This week will be a test though.

I leave for New Jersey tomorrow - I haven’t been up to visit since last April. I’m excited about it, but it’s always harder to ‘diet’ on vacation. I just don’t want to gain back any of the weight, especially since it takes me so long to lose even a pound. I’m not going to worry about it though because I refuse to be one of those people who gets obsessive about their weight. I’m going to try and eat smart, but allow myself to cheat a little bit!! Hopefully, while I’m gone our house will sell and I’ll still lose some weight and everything will be just perfect.

Not Much to Say

I weighed in today at 1%2.0.  Essentially, I maintained.  Although I suppose I’ll take .2 of a pound lost over nothing. 

Five Weeks

Well, I’m down another pound - 1%2.2, which is a good thing. I was kind of stalling out and not really going anywhere the last couple weeks (could be because I was eating too much to lose weight :o), but at least I’m headed back in the right direction. The disappointing news is that I’m only down 3.6 pounds in five weeks. If I look at it that way, I’m liable not to want to continue. I think that we as a society are so used to getting everything immediately, that when something takes time and effort it’s hard to continue. Fast food, microwave dinners, instant mashed potatoes (which my husband weened me off of in the first year of our marriage - having the real thing, I now know why), all these things are to “help” us get things done quickly, but at a cost. Fatter, lazier and more stressed…

So, if my initial goal of 15.8 pounds takes me another 20 weeks (I can’t lie - that sounds ridiculously long), so be it. I just can’t stop. I want to lose the weight. I want to be healthier and have more energy and be less stressed. I like having a little time to myself everyday and not feeling guilty about it. I’m just writing this down now so when I need to be reminded WHY I’m still doing this, it’s right here.

Maintained

I did lose the two pounds I gained during last week, so that’s good. My official weigh-in is 1%3.2, it’s not amazing, but it’s where I’m at. This past week my exercise schedule (or lack of one) has been the main problem. We’re selling the house, and a lot of people have come through to look at it. Good for selling, but bad for exercising. I don’t want to be in the middle of Tae-bo and have the realtor call and tell me I need to be out in 30 minutes! I have to shower after exercise and it would just take me too long to get ready and make sure the house is perfect. I’ll have to work something out there so I can do better. Let’s see what next week brings.

Yesterday

I never did get a chance to post my weekly weigh-in yesterday because the kids and I were at Adventure Island most of the day. There wasn’t much to post anyway. I weighed in at 1%3.4, the same as last week. Of course, this morning I weighed in again.. and was at 1%2.8 - I know it doesn’t count, but I thought that my weight would be up a little on Tuesday morning because we ended up having pizza for dinner on Monday night. Bad idea the day before weigh-in. We were supposed to have a healthy grilled meal, but sometime life just gets in the way of eating better, I have to work a little harder at that!

My main thing now is not eating because of anxiety. My hubby is one of those people who never plans things out, but always knows it will work. He’s never been wrong, but really - does that sound like a legitimate way to live? It’s amazing, we joke that he lives in PeterWorld - some fictionalized fantasy world where five minutes longer for something you want to do is two hours later and I’ll get to it later means it will magicially be done by itself!!! The weirdest part of all is that it’s a wonderful place to live. He’s been so calm through the house selling issues and everything, but I’m always worried anyway. He already knows when his last day of work is here, but we still haven’t even sold the house… that just makes me a little nervous, but somehow he’s right, it’ll all work out for the best. I just don’t have any vision, I see here and now.

So, because of life I tend to want to EAT - maybe that’s why I’m losing weight so slowly, but I suppose anything is a step in the right direction. I just need to keep on trying and see what next week brings.

Down Again

Well, the official weigh-in puts me at 1%3.4 - down exactly one pound from last week. I’m okay with that. To be honest, I can’t remember the last time I consistently lost any weight, be it 1/2 pound or 5 pounds for more than one week. That’s my average timeframe for ‘dieting’. “I lost weight this week, well great - bring on the food next week!”

One difference is being part of the diet. I know that there are people reading about my loss or gain, and that is a huge motivator. Not one person may actually care, but knowing that anyone could find out I failed leaves little butterflies in my stomach… No idea why that is, but hey, if it works - GREAT. Another difference is my frame of mind. I really want this for myself. I like feeling better and exercising and looking better. These are good things! I’m also not approaching this as a diet, but more of a life change.

My in-laws were down for a long weekend, and I was worried I wouldn’t lose any weight because my exercise schedule was all off. Since I was too embarrassed to pull out the Tae Bo tape during the day with them here, I tried swimming at night. It turns out that swimming at night is much better exercise than I expected. I love night swimming. It burns the calories, and the kids are in bed so it’s quiet and peaceful… I think I may have just changed around my routine. I recommend it to anyone that can do it. Obviously, it’s much easier if you have a pool and live in a year round warmer climate, but if not maybe a gym with a pool? Anyway, exercise in any form is always a mood lifter, I think.

I hope for many more weeks like this…

Baby steps

Well, this is my first week weigh-in as part of the diet. 1%4.4 - there I got the actual number part of this over with (sort of), so I lost 1.4 pounds. I wanted to join ediets.com and had said something about that in another blog, but when I tried they ask you a whole list of questions. One of them was: Are you pregnant or breastfeeding? My daughter just turned six months on saturday, and will be nursing for at least another six months. So, obviously I said yes and it took me to another screen that said I could either change my answer (why would I lie to a screen?) or I couldn’t join-up. As it is, I didn’t join.

But it did get me thinking. I gave birth six months, four days and about 5 1/2 hours ago… A few hours before I went into labor I was at the midwife’s office and weighed-in. I was 27 pounds heavier than when I first got pregnant (I lost five pounds the first month of my pregnancy then gained that back plus the 27, but that’s not really the point :)). I had a 9 1/2 pound baby girl the next morning and at my one week check up was back down the 27 pounds I had gained. Now six months later I’m down another 10.8 pounds. I just say all this to make my 1.4 pound loss feel more significant, but I really do have to lose this weight slowly. I know I’m making excuses to feel better about it, but it’s working! For now, I’m Jess’ main source of nutrition (she’s having breakfast as I write this) - so there is no slim fast for me or appetite suppressants or any of the stuff I really want to do to help!!

I have started exercising, though. The house hasn’t been perfect, and sometimes I don’t get around to cleaning it all, but my kids are happy and I’m putting something that makes me happy in the must do list each day. And Pete’s been supportive of it. Sometimes I get the feeling he looks around and wonders why I can’t manage to get it all done, but he’s been biting his tounge! Thanks babe. And I’m excited to fit a little better in my clothes - exercise is a wonderful thing.

And as I take baby steps to get to my goal, I find great inspiration…