My First Weigh-in

I am not a fan of failing. I think I’ve been so reluctant to join The Diet because of that. If you don’t try you can’t fail, right? Of course, that’s not true though. If you don’t try, you essentially fail everyday you haven’t tried - you fail yourself. My mom once told me that most thin people put themselves first. Does hearing that make you cringe? It did me. The thought of putting myself first is unthinkable!!! That’s why I really need to. What mother, wife or friend isn’t better for it if they take care of themselves? Have you ever been on a plane ride and been told that should there be an emergency you need to put that oxygen mask on yourself first and then the people around you (if they need your help)? That two second blurb by an airline attendant is so poetic if you think about it. Take care of yourself and you can do so much more for those around you. Putting yourself first isn’t a bad thing, it can actually make you happier, calmer, more content. Isn’t that what we want? And won’t that make me better at the roles in my life that I’ve alway found to be more important then breathing?

Okay, enough stalling. My weight going into this isn’t something I want to post. When I get where I want to be I still don’t know if I want to post my weight! I’ve never taken actual numbers to mean very much anyway - it’s about feeling good about myself, being healthy and keeping my family healthy… Initial weigh-in is 1%5.8 (I’ve changed the middle number to protect the innocent!), and my goal is 15.8 pounds to start. When I get there I’ll reevaluate how I feel and make a new goal for myself.

I’m thinking this will be a slow process. I’ve started up my exercise routine again and it’s so nice. I really missed exercising (haven’t done much since the last couple months of my pregnancy or since my daughter was born - she’s now almost six months old). I have made some progress pre- diet just from trying to eat a little better. I’m about 9 pounds less then what I was at right before I got pregnant with Jess. Seeing that has also been a motivator for joining the dieters.

So, I barrel in head first and hope it ends well!

The Next Chapter

I got a call from our realtor today telling me that someone wanted to come see the house in a half an hour. He wanted to know if there would be a problem… Of course 30 minutes is no time at all to make sure the house is ready, let alone enough time to get myself, Peter Zachary and Jess ready - BUT who would say no to a chance to sell a house you want out of?

Fortunately, the house is kept relatively ready at all times, perfect for those unexpected visitors - and all I had to do for us was throw on something acceptable for myself, change Jess' diaper and get Peter's shoes on. The rest is the hard part, if you ask me. As inconvienient as it may be to get 'kicked out' of your house, that's easy. Waiting for THE BUYER is what drives you nuts. You know who I'm talking about, THE BUYER - the person who will look at your house, make a full price offer, love every imperfection the house has and help your life move on to the next chapter (okay, so maybe that's not actually what the buyer will be like, but can't a girl hope).

We're in limbo, and I hate limbo. We make no plans past next week. We have no one coming to visit since we don't know where we'll be in two months (if we're here then no one can come because the house must look impecable and if we're not then a flight to Florida would be a waste, don't you think), and we just sit here and wait and wait and wait. Then there is the emotional roller coster you go through selling a house that you're going to miss. I initially get so excited when someone is coming to see the house. I think, let this be it - BUY MY HOUSE. Then Peter makes some comment about how he doesn't want us to sell the house (or he doesn't and I just think about it), and I get so sad thinking about leaving and never being in this house again. My son doesn't remember any other home and my daughter was born here, literally. Not here like as in Florida, here like as in right in the kid's playroom. This is my first home, and I'll miss everyone in Florida. But I know once it's over with I'll be busy getting ready to move. Packing up and then going north to see everyone for a few weeks will be so nice before we even get to North Carolina. Plus Pete is so miserable in this heat, I don't blame him for wanting out. And the unknown is so much more exciting then the mundane existence of everyday.

Yep, it's time for the next chapter. So, come on BUYER - find me.

First Blog

I am new to this and can't imagine people reading anything I might randomly say… but I did just spend the last hour w/ my husband getting this thing started, so I will see how it goes. It's now about midnight and seeing how I will probably be up to nurse my daughter in about an hour or two I will keep this short. I've decided to start the diet that the whole world has seemed to get involved w/ thanks inpart to my brother-in-law. It's a motivator to diet w/ others. When others suffer w/ you, you think less of your own hunger! I can't even think about before pictures or posting my weight - I'm w/ Eliza about releasing numbers only when the end number has been reached. But for now I'll say I'd like to lose about 20 plus pounds, maybe more - I have to see what I look like when I get there. Pete and I both took the diet channel test to see what kind of dieters we are and we both came up w/ the high fiber diet as being best for us, so we might join e-diet's too and see what they suggest. Doing this together will make life so much easier…